NOT LONG AGO..

It’s our 3-month “anniversary” the coming Friday, we have not been out for the last month, but I let him, because I love him. He had to work and save up for a new car. LIE

He told me that he has split up with her when he moved out HIMSELF, he also said she wasn’t pregnant. LIE 

I still have not moved in with him, because his sister has split up with her partner and has been looking for a new place. LIE 

His ex would not leave him alone, she constantly walked up to his house and blew up and cried to him, asking him to take her back. LIE 

He told me that he would never lie to me. LIE 

I used to pick him up an hour before work, and he wouldn’t go home til 4:30/5pm, because we would be spending time with each other. TRUTH 

He came to my place so very often, even my flatmates know him well. He would stay every Friday nights and a few hours on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday before going to work. TRUTH

He skips school, takes sickies to “spend time with me”. TRUTH

He wanted me to know his kids, I am over at his place on Sunday mornings, spend time with him and his kids. They love me, they play with me and they hug and kiss me goodbyes. TRUTH – would you let a “good-time-only” chick meeting your kids?

He makes me laugh, he triggered my artistic side, he makes me feel like I am the luckiest woman in the world. TRUTH

In front of our mutual friends, he said that I was his girlfriend. He showed affection in public, in front of our friends. TRUTH

He told me that I was too good for him, he loved me and he wanted to have kids with me. UNSURE

THE NIGHT WHEN THE TRUTH COME OUT..

I wanted to give him a surprise and so I walked up to his house unexpected, knocked on his window. TRUTH

He opened the door, she was with him, he asked what was I doing there, it’s a very bad idea. He told me to go right now and would explain everything later, she came out, wanted to see what’s going on. TRUTH

He chose to escape, he went back in. She asked what I was doing there. TRUTH

We started talking, giving her explicit details as evidence that he was lying to both of us. TRUTH

And I told her all the truth. I swore on my own life. TRUTH

She told me that he said I was stalking him. UNSURE - But would you let a “stalker” be alone with your girlfriend and a stranger (my brother) in the middle of the night? And if she believed that I was a “stalker”, would she stand in the middle of the street in the middle of the night with me?

I told her that I thought they have split up because she texted me before saying that she was moving out with her kid. She nodded. TRUTH

She went back in and asked me to stay for a moment. TRUTH

I guessed she was trying to get him to come out and talk to the both of us. UNSURE

Only when he came out again, he told me to leave and that he had called the cops. LIE – cus I waited for a while for the cops to catch me.

I was on the phone with her for 30mins that night, she listened to more explicit details of time, places and things that he and I did, I told her to ask his oldest son about me, she was silent, she must have believed in me, but she chose to deny it. TRUTH

TODAY

I am not too upset, because I have nothing to lose except for a little of my time, but he has a family to lose. TRUTH

I told her that I didn’t want her to live in lies. TRUTH

A lot of you, my friends, call him: “Bastard”, “dirty bastard”, “queer c_nt”, “fu_king piece of sh_t”, “a con man”, after I told you what I saw that night. TRUTH

And a lot of you, who care about me, will tell me to “get over him”, “he’s not worth your time”, “he’s a disappointment”. TRUTH

Not worth my time anymore?? UNSURE

I loved him and my brother and I both “saw” that he loves me so very much. TRUTH

But does he really love me so very much? UNSURE

Tell me, I also have the right to know, being his “legitimate” girlfriend, what the f_ck is going on there? UNSURE

He could have done a lot worse having his girlfriendS meeting up. He’s a coward. TRUTH

But I don’t only want to believe in things that I want to believe in, if he’s not worth it, I want to know. TRUTH

shouldnt say i am disappointing but it's true that he is not romantic, nor much of a planner...no booking of a nice restaurant, though we were lucky to have seats in a nice Thai place in Newtown where we sat on the floor for dinner, i can't imagine how uncomfy it was to eat on the floor, our legs were stretching towards different direction the whole dinner, we ate and chatted and he said it was great that we could chat like that lol

then we wanted to rent some funny movies from RedRoom so we picked Tropic Thunder (it would be my 3rd time watching this) and Step Brothers...it turned out that his laptop was set to region 3 and we had to rush back and see if they could give us credit/refund....so no movies....TV movies was alright but not the stuff that I would love to watch, so I fell asleep at 1-ish...then we slept...

it's not a "crime" if he didnt plan well on valentine's day, but next year i would impress him for SURE!!!!

Took me 2 days to read the Diary of a Manhattan Call Girl from p.1 to 86..when I first started reading it, I was like "gosh..i wish i make that much of money, damn that i will never look as hot and make as much" (i have to admit that i love sex so much and my man is so far from satisfying), but on p.9, where she had to keep this and that fr her (sexy as hell and) rich bf, i just can't imagine how i can cheat on my sexy beast too..mmm...when on from p.10, i gave up wishing i was a callgirl, mainly turned off by the fear of the profession being boardcasted...

Our lunch theme last week was: would you sleep with your boss continuously if he/she gives you a pay rise? He said yes (such a beast) if once only, but not continuously..but for me, it's big NO for any case..not even if we have 3 kids to feed and a mortgage to pay off?? Men are as selfish as an vacuum cleaner which wanna eat all the dust..